Homeland, the Dark Elf Trilogy #1 Book Report 2

나의 감정

고향,

누군가에게는 그리움, 그리고 누군가에겐 원치않는 기억,
어떤 형태로든 그 흔적을 남기는 걸지도.

그렇다면 우리의 주인공에게 남긴 건 무엇일까.
이질감. 이 하나의 단어로 표현해보려 한다.

원치않는 곳에서 원치않는 일을 하는건 괴롭지만,
그보다 더 괴로운건 어쩌면 혼자라는 감각일지도 모른다.

그렇기에 주인공은 고향에 있으면서도 이방인처럼 살아갔고,
그 고통을 그나마 누그려트려준게 그의 아버지이자 멘토인 자크였을 것이다.

자크는 그에게 때로는 장난기 많은 형처럼, 때로는 진중한 아버지처럼,
그리고 때로는 어딘가 쓸쓸해보이는 모습으로 다가왔을것 같다.

그래서일까, 그가 학교에서 돌아왔을때도 자크를 제일먼저 만나려 했고,
습격에서 살아돌아왔을때도 자크를 만나려했던걸테다.

주인공에게 있어 고향은 '자크' 였던거다.

그렇기에, 이 책은 그리움이나 반가움이 아니라, 상실이 되었다는 생각이 든다.

그에게 있어서 고향이란 자신이 여기있어선 안된다는걸,
자신은 다른 선택을 해야한다는 걸 알려주는 것이니까.

그에게 있어서 이젠 자신의 신념에 따라 살아가는것만이,
유일하게 자크를 만날수 있는, 고향을 지키는, 기억하는 길이 될것 같다는 생각이 든다.

영작

Homeland,

For someone, That is Yearning. And others that is memory that he/she does wanted.
Like so, it remain any kind of vestiage.

If so, what vestiage does our protagonist gets?
Incongruity, It seems.

It is a torment that doing unwanted task in unwanted place.
But, More tormented when you feel solely alone.

Therefore, Our protagonist has lived like stranger even though in his homeland.
And only Zak, his father and mentor, soothed his pain.

Sometimes, he became a playful, mischievous older brother.
And Sometimes, he became a thoughtful, pensive father.
And Sometimes, his appearance is somewhat solitary.

Maybe so, Our protagonist go staight to Zak when he returned from academy,
And after survived from the attack.

He, Zak, is in fact, the homeland of Our protagonist.

In my own words, This is the reason why this book is about 'loss', not yearning or gladness.

For him, Homeland now means he should not be here, and must do other choice.

His only path, to remember his homeland, zak, is to live in accordance with his own belief.

첨삭버전

Homeland

For some, it is a place of yearning.
For others, it is a memory they once cherished.
Either way, it leaves behind a kind of vestige.

Then, what sort of vestige does our protagonist carry?
Perhaps — a sense of incongruity.

It is torment enough to do unwanted tasks in an unwanted place.
But it is far more painful to feel utterly alone.

Thus, our protagonist has lived like a stranger, even in his own homeland.
Only Zak, his father and mentor, could soothe that pain.

Sometimes, Zak was a playful and mischievous older brother.
At other times, a thoughtful and pensive father.
And sometimes, a solitary figure himself.

Maybe that is why our protagonist ran straight to Zak
— both when he returned from the academy,
and when he survived the attack.

Zak, in truth, is the homeland of our protagonist.

In my own words, this is why the book is not about yearning or gladness,
but about loss.

For him, “homeland” now means a place he can no longer stay —
a place that demands another choice.

His only way to remember his homeland — Zak —
is to live in accordance with his own beliefs.